Diamonds in the Rough......

Ever feel like God put something on your heart, and continues to give you the "green light" that you are on His path.........yet He never seems to find it to be THE TIME to bring the dream to full-blown fruition!!??!!??   Welcome to my world as of late.

Man.........I tried to keep my heart in check today, hoping and praying to lay eyes on our babe(s) just in time for Mother's Day.  I didn't do so hot.  I couldn't calm the butterflies fluttering around in my tummy bringing with them excitement of the possibility of knowing who our child or children are for Mother's Day.  I gave up trying and instead, gave myself permission to get giddy and excited with hope.

Get THIS!  Katie Seevers is a precious friend whom I've met through our Agency and the blog world.  You will never in a million years guess what message she sent me today ~ amidst the waiting in high hopes for her own referral today!

"just called Jeff to ask him to pray for me... as I was crying like a baby. 

I want this referral soo bad.  Yet, as he was praying, I thought of you 

and decided I'd like to offer up my referral call today, 

so that you can get yours. ;) No matter what, you already are a mommy... 

because you'll be getting that pic of your sweet babe/babes 

ANYDAY!!! Still praying it's today ;)"

I was floored!  Blessed!  Brought to my knees in tears.  Good tears.  A release of tears that I struggled to withhold all day.  A time of re-releasing the timing of our "meeting" of our son or children to our Heavenly Father.  It was a cleansing cry.  One also filled with amazement that I know such a woman as precious as Katie.  Truly, she is Christ wearing skin!  THANK YOU for blessing me with your friendship and words of encouragement, Katie!

.........Well, the clock has ticked it's final hour.  The possibility of receiving our referral and seeing the face of THE child or children God has hand-picked for us has passed us by today.  NO REFERRAL.  Again.

Another Mother's Day spent with empty arms.  Loving a child with all my heart, whose face(s) I have yet to see. {tears}

No kidding.  As I sat down here with the intent of typing out my woes, I have been receiving such encouragement!  Almost as though God is calling out to me, through friends and family, saying, "Don't give up!  Don't let your eyes stray from me!  Keep focused on me and my Promises!  You are not forgotten!"

I am ever so THANKFUL for our friends that so "get" this whole journey, who waited with anticipation with us.........all day.........hoping for us to "meet" our babe(s) while also hoping to see the face of their own babes as well!  A true blessing that has become a major part of this journey to our son or children!

Soooooo, instead of venting my lack of understanding and my lack of patience, I am going to share with you some of the other "diamonds in the rough" that I received this afternoon and evening.  You know who you are, and if you are one who sent me an uplifting message or prayed for us today (and many days throughout this journey), please know that I feel you!  I thank you!  I need you!  And you really did bless me today!

When I was about to only focus on the unanswered prayer, YOU reminded me to keep my focus on something more solid.  More real.  His Promises.  The Truth.  GOD's Truth.  I love each and every one of you!

Earlier today, I was on Melissa's blog where she was posting about waiting for a "Yes!"  from God.  I was blessed with the verse of Habukkuk 2:3 that states,

"This vision is for a future time. 

It describes the end, and it will be fulfilled. 

If it seems slow in coming, wait patiently,

 for it will surely take place. It will not be delayed."

God knew that I needed some of His Truth to get me through the rest of this evening and weekend.  And He provided via this verse!

A few of the other blessings that helped pull me out of my mud and muck this afternoon include:

Teri Boosalis' response to not receiving the referral of her daughter today was, "God answered my prayers. He said "not today...wait." I thank Him for His perfect timing, although I may not understand. He is the Source of my joy!! I'm so glad to be His daughter! "  What a positive outlook!  Helped refocus my eyes to look UP more than at my sadness.  Thank you, Teri!

Shannon DeVol sent me the words to a song that really spoke to her and she thought it would speak to me too.........

My foes are many, they rise against me

But I will hold my ground

I will not fear the war, I will not fear the storm

My help is on the way, my help is on the way

Oh, my God, He will not delay

My refuge and strength always

I will not fear, His promise is true

My God will come through always, always

Troubles surround me, chaos abounding

My soul will rest in You

I will not fear the war, I will not fear the storm

My help is on the way, my help is on the way

Oh, my God, He will not delay

My refuge and strength always

I will not fear, His promise is true

My God will come through always, always

I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord

I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord

I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord

I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord

From You Lord, from You Lord

Oh, my God, He will not delay

My refuge and strength always

I will not fear, His promise is true

My God will come through always, always

Oh, my God, He will not delay

My refuge and strength always, always

It amazes me to know that SO MANY others are covering us and our little one(s) in prayer!  Family,  co-workers, and friends ~ both local and long distance, as well as those whom I've never met beyond this blog world!  Truly amazing!  Such a privilege it is to pray for other's waiting hearts and their children too!  I never dreamed we would develop such an amazing source of friendship, love, and encouragement to cling to God in this process. 

We love each and every one of you.  New friends and old! 

We are so blessed to share our journey with each one of you!