Wednesday, January 25, 2012



As HARD as these past four weeks have been ~ okay the past two weeks, because Daddy was with us the first two weeks! ~ I have to say that I am SO VERY THANKFUL that I don't have to say that I have missed ANOTHER month of Kaleab's life!

I am sad that he is already 11 months old.  But on the same note, I am SO VERY THANKFUL that he is healthy and is on target with his developmental milestones!  THANK YOU, GOD, that our baby is healthy !!!!  And yes, he is growing!  I swear he has gained a couple pounds in the month he has been in our care at the Guest House!  Either that, or my arm is getting tired.  Ha!

Our sweet baby has just not been himself the past four days or so.  On Monday I took him to the kind doctor at the Transition House (where he lived before we got to bring him into our care) and she put hydrogen peroxide in his little ears and a saline solution up his nose, and asked me to bring him back today.  Which I did.

He is now on antibiotics.  His ear infection is full blown in his right ear. His poor nose expels the yucky green stuff we are all familiar with.  He is pretty fussy all day and just doesn't want to be let down.  Ever.  Can you blame him?

I sure don't mind holding my baby all day long!  Just wish he felt better.

On another note, I had to say good-bye to Katie Reaser, a sweet fellow AWAA adoptive mama who has been here with me.  THANK GOD they were finally cleared to take their sick baby girl HOME to Kansas yesterday!  I also had to say farewell to the Coulombe family.  They were here for Court for their 6 yr old daughter (they passed!), and return home tonight.  We visited our children together these past few days and have really developed a sweet bond with one another.  {LOVE how adoption families have an instant connection!}

Big Brother watched this last visit with their daughter, and like other times that people have had to depart after court or come to take their children home..........I've watched it stir emotions in our sweet son.  He has such a tender and loving heart!  He was asking who was leaving today.  He wanted to know specifically if their daughter was leaving with them.  I'm not sure if the fact that she was staying was a good thing or a bad thing in his little mind.

It provided me another opportunity to remind him of how excited we are to return to ET to bring him HOME!!!!  To remind him that we WILL be returning!  And that Mom and Kaleab will still be here to visit him daily for at least another week {this brought a smile to his stressed face}.

It also provided me further insight into how HARD our own personal departure is going to be!  I SO LOVE THIS BOY and I DO NOT want to leave him here!  Yet, I cannot stay another 2-3 months!  Oh, the tugging of my heart!  Such a dichotomy of feelings.  A grave dreadfulness of saying "see ya soon" to our oldest son, along with a strong desire to be HOME ~ in America, with Jeff, starting the transition with Kaleab, while also finishing Big Brother's room, finding the best school for him, etc.

Ufdah.  Emotions all over the board.  Think I'm gonna go FaceTime my hubby.  That always lifts me up....


jkseevers said...

oh Debb. This has been such a time of difficulty, growth, stretching. Praying for your sweet, weary heart. For S's heart. For Kaleab's health. For Clearance and court passing and the ability to GET HOME!

Love you girl.

Love you!

Lari said...

Happy 11 month Kaleab! So glad you get to spend it w/ your Mama! Hope his ear's better soon Debb! Will cont to pray for S and quick resolution, passing court.

Elle J said...

Heavy heart - I am praying for you All!!

Sarah Richmond said...

Hi- I found your blog a few days ago as I scoured the internet for other families in the same adoption stage as we are. We were submitted to the Embassy on 12/30, and our daughter also turned 11-months-old today. :-) I just wanted to say 'hi' - and thank you for sharing your journey. We APs can encourage and hold each other up while we wait. Prayers for you and your family. -Sarah

From a full heart... said...

Ugh. I know it is so hard to leave. I pray that the wait will be short and that this time as he anticipates your return will firmly bond his heart to yours.

krissy said...

The day I met Teshome, he had the thickest, yuckiest, nastiest green GUNK coming out his left ear. I was mortified. The doctor didn't seem concerned but my heart ached for him. We took him to the guest house to 'doctor him. He was clearly hurting on so many levels. That night, we had to doctor our son without water and electricity. I'll never forget John holding up his cell phone as a flashlight and me trying to clean the gunky from around the outside of Teshomes ear with a wet wipe, through tears. God filled us with grace for that moment as we grieved for and loved our son.

His ear drum had indeed busted. But God, in His great mercy healed it completely. The doctor stateside said he could barely tell the drum busted it healed so completely.

I thought of this verse today as I prayed for you:

Psalm 126 A Song of Ascents.

1 When the LORD restored the fortunes of Zion,
we were like those who dream.
2 Then our mouth was filled with laughter,
and our tongue with shouts of joy;
then they said among the nations,
“The LORD has done great things for them.”
3 The LORD has done great things for us;
we are glad.

4 Restore our fortunes, O LORD,
like streams in the Negeb!
5 Those who sow in tears
shall reap with shouts of joy!
6 He who goes out weeping,
bearing the seed for sowing,
shall come home with shouts of joy,
bringing his sheaves with him.

We are praying for all of you! So much sorrow, some joy in the journey and yet so much joy to come. We're praying for you every step of the way.

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